..i asumed you didnt care

Zach: hello?
you there?
please text me?
what did i do?

Vanessa:Zach

Zach:you didnt you text me?
HELLO
hello
hello...



shhhh, the world is watching.. but they dont care,
they dont understand, i love you with my heart and sole
but slowly i come to relize that im a vicome of my own torture..
please, your eyes cut like razor blades into my heart
your name is there forever, cut slow becuase i want to feel the pain
of your love..
im not the best i may not be what you want but please tell me if you care
do you love me??
will you forever?
.........
.........
will you marry me?
?
i love you
vanessa.
as i slowly cut love into the very fabric of my reality
i slowly bleed an o so unpleasent blood of my worst fear
the blood of my heart broken in two and missing you
the only thing that keeps this heart beating is the thought that
i may be with you
Vanessa?
do you love me?
okay,, goodbye.. goodnight.. forever..
i slowly carve the exit of this world into the my arm
the very arm that held you close when you were scared
that held you close when i told you i love you
..
the blood poors from the sole of the unholy..
goodnight
im sorry i had to prove i love you, and wont live without you
(2 hours later)

Vanessa: Hello zach?
I love you.. please take me back..

Zach: (this number has been deleted due to death)

Vanessa: what!!!
ill be with you soon, to tell you i love you,
:) wait for me,

death,

close your eyes

fall asleep in vanquish

as the devil dances in your mind

he says its over goodbye goodnight

but i tell you he's wrong!

never close your eyes in the everlong of

sweet sweet infuno death

im dying slowly but you will never take me

while i can still breath that beautiful urb of love

peace

and a smiles from a good friend

my tears cut like knives into by face

but i contunue to cry becuase if i dont i die.

i cant live with thought of you without me

slowly i close my eyes the pain overwelms into my sole

my breath is short, but i wont go down

im close to the edge with nothing to lose!

Keep me in your mind till the day you die, and keep it close

in your sole that you killed an innocent child

by means of love, demise, and rise

kill me slowly, but only if its nessarry,,

peace..

love for all

please listen to what i have to say,
you cant hold onto the past.
i did and you should see where it took my life,
i think about that one moment sometimes and hope i never feel like that again
i cant take heartbreak, im with Vanessa,
my life,
without her im nothing,
if i lose her i will not know what to do,
my heart is already torn,
but baby we will make it,
life is hard, be tougher,
listen to me,
love is not a figment of our imganation
love is here,
its here
its there
its all around us, you cannot hear if you do not listen
..love pseaks threw everyone,
everyone deserves a chance to love and be loved
if a freind of yours is having a bad time,
let him know hes/shes not alone,
its okay,
Love For All♥

vanessa

baby dont cry

im not gunna die

i know the reason why i cant breath

because your not here

i shed a tear

baby stand up tall

ill never let you fall

all i want is you to trust me

vanessa

i promis i wont mess up

you just have to trust me

love me and youll see

ill never find a girl like you

im lost in your eyes

blue as the skies

ill never let you cry

ill never let you wonder why

this songs for you

all the things i want to do

vanessa baby i love you

baby ill try

try to stay alive

till i see your face

im not the man i usta be

love me and youll see

i write this song

its not to long

but its for you

there all for you

im the one to blame

but im not the same

i try

try not to cry

but theres only so much pain i can take

but its all for your sake

vanessa

i promis i wont mess up

you just have to trust me

love me and youll see

ill never find a girl like you

im lost in your eyes

blue as the skies

ill never let you cry

ill never let you wonder why

this songs for you

all the things i want to do

vanessa baby i love you

you cant break my faith

ever with a lie

but ill do my living after iv died

keep me in your heart till you die

then i can see your face one last time.

but baby remember i love you.

your tears fall down like rain

i toss and turn at night

waiting for the sunlight

but i role over and see your face

i can tell your scared

but so am i

i feel like im about to die

please don tbreak my heart

and leave me alone in the dark

you have left your mark

my tears role down my face

but im not the one to blame

its you

or is it me?

its my fault for your pain

its my fault your tears drive me insne

i walk the line

but what keeps me here is knowing that your mine
_____________________________

so baby

put the knife down

your tears dont make a sound

tonight my heart stands still

with eyes set to kill

with a broken heart

you sit alone in the dark

with tears in your eyes...

and your tears fall down like rain

along your broken heart id full of pain

your slowly loosing conccessness

im slowly dying of hopelessness

i pray

i pray

youll make it to see the next day

and your tears fall down like rain

along your broken heart if full of pain

and your blood poors down

like a thunderstorm before the day

and theres nothing more i can say

expet pray

youll make it threw the night

to see beautful sunlight
______

its my fault you want to go

but your voice is all i know

please im here

the end doesnt have to be near

so keep talking because i need to here your voice

its not like this its your choice

please step back

you dont have to react

with life without you

your the only one who has a place in my heart

now my sole is dark

the razorblades dont kill the pain

your eyes are the blue eyes before the pain

your lies are complicated

your demise was intisapated

a sore..

how deep do you go untill its real
_________

so baby

put the knife down

your tears dont make a sound

tonight my heart stands still

with eyes set to kill

with a broken heart

you sit alone in the dark

with tears in your eyes...

and your tears fall down like rain

along your broken heart id full of pain

your slowly loosing conccessness

im slowly dying of hopelessness

i pray

i pray

youll make it to see the next day

and your tears fall down like rain

along your broken heart if full of pain

and your blood poors down

like a thunderstorm before the day

and theres nothing more i can say

expet pray

youll make it threw the night

to see beautful sunlight
_______

she drops the knife

and steps away

i close my eyes and faid..

the blood is spilled across the blade

no she didnt have to go and i know

im never letting go

my tears crash to the floor

but my pain wont feel anymore

becasue her tears wont fall like rain

her heart isnt filled with pain

but her blood falls like a thunderstorm before the day

im honestly scared to death..

and on your last breath

you say..

im sorry im not what you wanted to be..

i sit here waiting for proof that theres such thing as real love..

and the hardest part of living

is knowing when to be strong

and move on
____

and here tears fall down like rain..

run away my love

If you'v ever wanted to dissapear


if you'v ever wanted to run away


i could make your dream come true today


juts take my hand we will make it threw


this i can promis to you


if you loved me you would go


run away my love


we can make things turn out rite


run away my love


we can turn this darkness into light


there is no need to cry


life is uts passing by


run away my love


please......... go


you sit alone


talking on the phone


wishing someone would save you


and hear i am


i can make your dreams come true


if you jutst follow threw


come with me


forever and eternaty!


i can make things all rite


run with me into the night!


run away my love


we could turn this darkness into light


run away my love


if you love me you would go


it may seem hard


but youll make it threw


theres not much you can do


just trust me!


Run away my love!


we could make this something rite


runaway my love!


we could turn this darkness into light


If you loved me you would go!


i love you

emotions

ALONE to be alone is wishing to be wanted by some one you miss alone is wanting to be away from the one you love but cant stand to be with, wanting to be alone is wish, i wish for some one to come or leace


CRY to cry is just a sing of deseration, a good sign its a wish for something new, something to change, some one something a broken heart a broken bone or even a broken spirit


TEAR it is also a wish a wish that you just hope will come, but never does, it is okay to shed a tear, it takes the pain away,


EMOTIONS happyness, sad, depression, love, hate, all of these are emotions, they are all needed to live, you cant be happy all your life, you cant be sad all your life, you cant be depressed all your life, love all most last forever, hate last a wile, but all of them can be put together to be me.
its okay to be sad nothings wrong, but just know that you will get threw eventualy,



LOVE love is knowing when to let someone go, knowing when it is over and not prolonging it, love is when you are 100% sure and you dont change your mind.
i wish you could know when you feel it, but you can never know untill it is to late, I HATE LOVE!



HATE hate is when you love some one but you just cant admit it, it is when you want to be with them, but they just dont want to be with you, so you cover your love up with hate, hate is a sin, hate is one of the roots to all evil. hate is love with a blind-fold on

HAERT your heart is a holy place it is were god live in you, and when i say heart i mean spirit, your sole, all your emotions come from your heart. pian, love, hate, sorrow, happyness, comes from the heart. you can let god work in you and be richouse in him, or you can let your emotions take over you and sin

EYE your eyes is the root of all evil your eyes are sin, you wonder were you should not, your eyes decieve you, they lie, they wont lead you threw it.

MIND your mind is your own dont let the igronance oh other people damage your mind, you can choose, but we need to choose the right things, but that is imposible, your mind lies to you, it tells you that it is okay it is right, that youwill never make it through, but in relity it is okay, nothing is really wrong. you will get threw.

PIAN pian is a trick in your mind, happyness with a blind fold, love with a blind fold, pain come in all of these emotions, it is part of life, you move on from pain, it goes away,

ROMANCE romance is just igroance, we do this because we are lonly people, why, why do we do this, no one really knows, we just feel love, and we try to exlpain how we really feel, we are just selling ourself short.

LIES lies are a load of crap, i hate lies, they are what is wrong with this world, i hate liers, that is the reason for the tears, that is the reason for the hate, i just wish i could be alone, i want three wishes, my life would be so much easyer,



SORRY
sorrry? oh no sorry is when you are 100% sorry that it went wrong or that you hurt some one, if you dont mean it you should never say it, or it will just hurt the person that you said it to. Sorry is when you would take back what you did, and do it a nother way. people say forgive and forget, well hell no, you can forgive but you will never forget the things that they siad or did, how bad they hurt you.



MUSIC
music is a way to express yourself. the music you listen to will defanitly shape yourlife. when people scream in thier songs, thye are trying to get out all the anger of hatered that they have, the pian, when they sing sad songs thye are hurt, when they are normal songs, they most likely in an okay mood.



PAST
the past is the past you cant change anything now, you can wish, you can live in the past or try to move on, but people say forget about the past, but it is impossible to forget when the scares remind you that the past is real, it really happend, and you cry and wish, but it doesnt help
im sorry to tell you but it sucks!



SCARES
they tell you that it really happened and nothing you can do will ever take it away. bad choices, its sad but they help you not to make the same bad choice twice, and that the choice you mad will never go away. they remind you that the past is real